Like it never was,,

Buongiorno :-)

It's been a while, hasn't it?

Even if it's been that long.. well, some things haven't change, actually. I still haven't got any callbacks from companies I'm applying to for an internship position, the requirements are like crazy it's almost like impossible for me to expect them to lay their eyes on my resume doh. Well I guess I keep myself open for opportunities now though, since some of my extraordinaire buddies haven't got any callbacks too so I really don't mind being left unemployed for now as long as I'm not alone xD

About college, well everything's been going quite well except for the IS project, it kills you slowly without you knowing. trust me. Haha, it's not killing anything literally, but I gotta say I am beat for having to revise documents after documents that our programmer hasn't been able to start doing the codes (well I guess it's good for him not having to code immediately... or I don't know). Furthermore, we're currently in the middle of midterms so the frustration is kinda doubled :p I just hope the development will go smoothly after this so me and the team would pass this course with an acceptable grade amen. *insert praying emoticons here*

And I think I need more of a commitment to myself here, at the start of the term I promised myself I would give enough attention during class sessions and take notes, what's been happening is the complete opposite: a crystal clear empty notebook. Come on, I'm 20 years old now, I shouldn't be needing anymore buzz alert when it comes to my own benefit, so that's a point to improve on. I also need to stop on becoming a part-time clairvoyant when it comes to studying for midterms, every materials has an equal probability on coming up on the question sheet and I was like "Ooh, I guess this part won't show up." and moved on to the next section of the course without taking a glance on it (it did happen in business intelligence midterm last Monday)... guess what? Those skipped materials popped up in three essay questions out of seven! LOLOLOL *somebody please chop my head off now*

Yes there are still lots of aspects to work on, and I really have to gather more experience on my field of study since my resume is like blah when I finally managed to make one, which is why I decided to team up with a couple of seniors on a case solution competition this May, yaaaaaay! (wait, what am I 'yay'-ing about anyway?). Then again, aside from academic stuffs, I haven't been able to write about my farewell with the mentor team *sighs* it already happened last month but since the writing might be long I decided to keep it after I could get enough room to breathe from this college madness.

Alright this post gotta stop here, I'll be studying for another midterm next Monday and the lecturer's allowing to permit us make an unlimited amount of notes to bring for the exam so it's gonna be a stamina battle after this post's posted.

TTFN :)

~*Koku-kirin_chan*~

It was during the afternoon when Thomas worked on his writing in the library. The silence, solitude and the cool breeze of the library's study center was the perfect mood-setting environment for Thomas to find inspiration to write. He was, for quite sometime, able to make clear of what he was thinking into the blank papers through a gel ballpoint, at least until he noticed someone within his eyesight. This someone just suddenly made everything went blank, the connection of the plot that just emerged awhile ago in Thomas's mind just went abruptly scattered, and it was all because he was annoyed by this person...

...so much...

He has a reason to hate the person, and mostly his friends know about it too, but they're all saying that Thomas might be perceiving things in the wrong way. Even when he told Barty about his disliking towards the person, Barty would only give a "buddy slap" on his back and say something like "That's just hideously doesn't make any sense" while trying his best not to laugh at Thomas's statement. This person was actually Thomas's friend too but they're just kinda bit having some kind of a cold war.

Thomas had made clear to this person about the reason to his disliking once and also by actually ignoring this person everytime he's around after that, but hell the other person acted like there was nothing at all, as if he has done nothing wrong and Thomas is just being delusional about him making such mistakes that would possibly lead to hatred.

Normally, Thomas would ignore this person, giving the same treatment he was given. But actually, today was not actually the right time for Thomas to go the usual way... "not today", he thought, so he made a contact and finally come through his nerves and decided to greet the other person.

"Good afternoon, Daniel".

Daniel smiled at him, looking astonished, "How unusual...".

Thomas gave him a quick smile and decided to go back and try to concentrate on his papers one more time, yet strangely, rather than ending the conversation, Daniel walked towards him and stood there looking at Thomas's papers.

"So what you're just going to give a sunny attitude? Are we done with the problems?" Daniel asked.

Thomas gave him a blank stare. "We haven't get a chance to talk things through about how annoying you are to me. Well you never seem to be interested to make things clear in the first place anyway."

"So why the sudden attitude change?"

"Daniel.. there is always a day where I want to be nice to a person, even to whom I hate the most, for at least a day." Thomas explained.

Daniel gave him a confused look, "So that's it then? Friends again at last?"

Thomas shook his shoulders, "Again? What makes you think I ever stopped?"
....
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And yet another dream, another strange dream yet, but actually this time it kinda ended at that point, so hopefully I didn't miss a single point since I were able to jot the points down without interruptions like the last time. xD

About what it means....

... I don't know, even if I do know, it's not currently in my top list of "things to explain about"



~*Koku-kirin_chan*~

Well hello there, having nothing to do here actually makes me want to write something, so there may not be something significant but certainly there is something to write about.. even if it's not document worthy.

So college has been going on for two weeks now, it has been fine and nothing is actually torturing as much as it was last semester when I have to spend time until 11pm at campus just to get some homework done. The lecturers seems fine so far, I mean nobody is giving a tremendous amount of work (even though there are still quite many of it) and I have been assigned to team up with some very reliable friends on a group project for "Information System Development" course.

In case you might be wondering why am I here when there's actually nothing to worry about since everything seemed going well this time, well actually... it's not. Actually, this worrywart here has been spending to much time thinking about things that should've been left alone, which results in anxiety. Sometimes I even wonder why the hell does my brain keep thinking about stuffs that doesn't matter that much to other people anyway, they seem to be quite content with their lives.. well, maybe they just good at putting up some mask, idk.

So these "worried" started to pop up when I was in a lecture and Arini Astari sat there beside me looking at the list of people who were applying for a position as an assistant lecturer. Then she just happened to say it:

"God there's so many of people possibly graduating 'cum laude', and look at me here, meh".

That's when it started. I happen to not be one of those people she stated, but when we look at the list again, it turned out that two of our friends actually are. I was okay with it at first, but then chances of getting into internship programs start popping up, and then I heard some companies are accepting only for undergraduates with GPA above 3.50, that was when I finally go "damn".

So I sit down and think, what have I been doing? There are actually a lot of my friends that belong in that criteria, and our activities are pretty much the same. Then I go, where did I go wrong? They say organizational experiences help us in work, right? So why the hell, now, they are actually selecting people through GPAs first and doesn't bother to look at what we have done. Okay, I said to myself, it's just some company and there are still lots of it, and then I chilled, it's just internships though, but... most companies hired fresh graduates who had participated in internships. That is when I realized that I just lost my golden ticket, and from now on it's a battle of hell, I really need to get myself pumped to fix all of this academic madness happening on my academic transcript... it's now or never.

Okay so that's that about academics, and then I look at the calendar and realize I'll be turning 20 soon. Then I go... what the f*ck am I going to do with my life? Let's see, have I decided whether to take on masters degree or look for a job? no. Then, if I decided to take on masters degree, who will pay for it? Certainly not my parents, I have three smaller siblings for them to feed, not to mention that masters degree is amazingly expensive ._. Well if I'm about to get a scholarship, what are the chances? I haven't participated in any kind of work related to my major, how would they even look at me? crap crap crap. So, if masters degree isn't feasible at the time being, how about looking for a job? Oh I forgot, how would I get a job if a company wouldn't even want me for an internship?

THAT is when I start going crayzay... @_@ OIUY#@(ERG#@(DH(H@(*p329hd

Yes I know I probably shouldn't be thinking all this stuffs but it just simply happened and now I sorta feel like a garbage. Well... I just hope everything nice would reveal themselves from time to time starting tomorrow. I guess I'll go to sleep, it wouldn't help solve these problems but at least the anxiety might fade even though the worries stay. Or maybe I should just work on my assignments to help me getting distracted, eh did I say I have nothing to do earlier on this post? Well screw that I lied ._.

~*Koku-kirin_chan*~

Barty walked along the market streets when the sun was about to set, he could see merchants packing their stuffs as they were about to close down their market stalls. By the time he reached the docks, he squinted his eyes as the warm evening breeze swept his face roughly, and when the wind stopped he was finally able to see what he was looking for, and walked towards it.

Beside a banyan tree before the pier, there sat a man watching the sun setting slowly by the sea, Barty approached the guy and by his sight he could see a trace of tears that have been wept from the man's cheek, and he thought, "Oh.. the melancholy". Being aware that his words might interrupt the deep thought the man was in, he picked his words carefully as so not to startle him...

"You alright?" asked Barty.

The other man turned his face to Barty, looking a little bit shocked.

"Your parents are looking for you, they're worried sick, let's go home." Barty continued, he extended one arm to help the man stand on his feet, which is replied just finely by the other man. "You want to tell me what it is about?"

"Hm? It's... uh... nothing, just about work in particular, I've told you how much I hate the job, right?", replied the other man as he began to walk alongside Barty towards the marketplace, making their way back home.

"What about it now?" asked Barty. He looked at his wristwatch, realising it's already about dinnertime, he hastened his steps.

"No.. just the usual stuffs, nothing new really." replied the other man. However, as convincing as the answer might sound, Barty gazed at him through his black, thick-framed glasses as if not believing the given statement.

"Well it has never actually been a nothing when you speak in a low-pitched tone..." said Barty.

They had walked for about twenty minutes before finally reaching the village, Barty's mission was complete, he had bring the man back to his house as the other man's parents had asked him. "Are you gonna be fine now?" asked Barty, putting both his hands inside his jacket pouch.

"As long as I keep myself busy I don't think anything else would bother me," replied the other man. ".. thanks, Barty." he continued, but as he was about turned the house's doorknob, Barty interrupted him.

"Hey, Thomas?"

Thomas turned his head to Barty, who seemed to be doubtful as he continued to stutter.. "Dragons?"

There was a little bit of pause before Thomas finally replied, "No... but a Phoenix, it is. Hey, you know what Bart? It is actually......."

.......

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That was my dream last night. As strange as this may sound, the dialogues were performed in English, which is a weird thing since as I recall it, the dialogues in my dreams were always in Indonesian (as it is my mother language). It also happens that I was a third person in the dream, which usually again, as I recall it, most of the time I was the first person in the scene.

I don't know why but I just think I need to write this down, as if something was important between Thomas' and Barty's conversation after that when my memory about the dream just abruptly ended. It's a shame that when I finally be able to jot down the scenes that happened, my mom suddenly knocked on my door and voila, the remaining events are entirely gone from my head. I was so frustrated of not being able to remember the rest of it since I... somehow... feel that their discussion after that is something important and I get the feeling it may somehow represent something (an answer) to a question I have been pondering. Aaaaargh, this just stresses me out, and no I'm not crazy, I'm just madly curious and then again it may not connect to anything, it could've been just my imagination.

But still, I think I would have been more relieved if I remember all of it. Alright I guess I just need some cooling off, they're just dreams anyway... how silly of me. -..-a *grok*

~*Koku-kirin_chan*~

Anticipating long gaps between posts, I decided to write some extra additions to my course history which is as follows:

4th Semester Course (February 2011 - June 2011)

Database (IKI20400)

• Even though I have no idea why, (IKI10400) was a prerequisite for this course despite actually having no correlation between the two. This class is actually way much more enjoyable (at least for me) than the prerequisite. In my case, selecting the right type of lecturer for you is the answer, thankfully I did seem to had picked the right one judging that I find the materials interesting to the extent of preferring to study the material more than the other course I also attended during the semester.
• Database, as its name says, covers all of the general concepts of creating a good database system according to its principles and theories. The materials include: Architecture, Development Cycle, Entity Relational Diagram, Mapping Relational Model into Table, Normalization Concepts, Structured Query Language (SQL) and finally, Data Organization and Index
• It is a 4 credits course packed along with two written quizzes, five homeworks and three group assignments. Exams were during midterms and finals week. It is a prerequisite for optional courses (IKO31754) and (IKS42651)
• Group assignments are designed to work on steps through steps from creating an ERD at the first assignment to actualizing it by creating a website. My group assignment topic was the "Social Network".

Business and Technical Communications (IKS31951)

• The class is all about how to communicate well in terms of business and technical matters. It was absolutely fun, the lecturer is nowhere in the boring category and humanly speaking... the assignments were very friendly. The course is definitely one of my top favorites.
• Business and Technical Communications covers topics such as: Creating Brief Messages, Supporting Messages with Quality Information, Completing Reports, Designing Oral Presentations, Writing Employment Messages, et c. The prerequisite for taking this course was only that you have taken and collected 48 credits.
• It is a 3 credits course including two pop quizzes and four assignments. Examination was only held once during the semester since the final score was taken from our oral presentation in class session.

Enterprise Resource Planning (IKS22602)

• Did not like the class... 150 minutes in a single session was just very unideal. I mean, except you're a godlike human being you wouldn't stand a chance not feeling sleepy every ten minutes after the first forty minutes, especially knowing that you still have a long way to go and it's not even half of the session yet. Anyhow, despite not being able to attend one pop quiz, I managed to get myself a decent final score by having been taught by a friend for finals preparation, which made the final exam score much of a help to catapult the final grade.
• The course is all about planning resource availability in an organization, and also the flow of how an organization manage to serve a customer's order from the time an ordered is issued until the requested order is received by the customer.
• It is a 3 credits course packed with 4 lab sessions about basic SAP navigation, production planning, materials management, and sales and distribution. There were two pop quizzes, and exams were done during midterms and finals week.

Organizational Behaviour (IKS41653)

• Probably one of the course I straightly found to be relatable to the outside world. The class taught me about the basic psychological factors in human, what affects them in their respective workplaces, and how are those psychological factors and traits affect their working behaviour and performance. It was pretty much easy for me since I have loved psychological science since I was fourteen. I skipped class a lot though, mostly because each session was 150 minutes long which leads to boredom, and to add more sleepiness the session ran during late afternoons so... yes you know what happens.
• The course covers materials such as: Foundation of Group Behaviour, Attitudes & Job Satisfaction, Personality & Value, Motivational Concepts, Understanding Work Team, Common Issues to Leadership, Change & Stress Management, et c.
• Organizational Behaviour is a 3 credits course with two group assignments and one final oral presentation. Exams were done each during the midterms and finals week.

Operations Research (IKS22403)

• Operations Research is also one of my favourite courses, it's mathematics, and I hate mathematics as I might have mentioned before, but this class turned out to be really enjoyable :-) It's different from any other sort of mathematics, as I once said that Statistics and Applied Probability was a torture, this is more like the Linear Programming material we have learned in high school, so it did make materials more familiar and easier to digest instead of trying to understand things from zero again.
• Operations Research covers the linear programming modelling as well as the methodologies/algorithms needed to solve linear programming related issues and its variant. Materials include: The Simplex Method, Linear Programming Modeling, Two-Phased Simplex Method, Postoptimality Simplex Method, Duality & Sensitivity Analysis, Transportation Problem, Hungarian Method, et c.
• It is a 3 credits course packed with two written quiz, four homeworks and one group assignment.Exams were done twice during midterms and finals week.

Operating System (IKI20505)

• Probably the nemesis of the semester, Operating System is considered one of the very lowest computer level component which might be the cause of why I couldn't keep up with the materials as the slides went on. Apart from the materials that were quite hard to digest, choosing the right lecturer might come in handy in this case, since in my case I had a pretty strict lecturer and the one who made the problem sets for exams was a more challenging lecturer but was also a more tolerant one. The final exam was pretty much a bloodbath, I literally broke down to tears after it was over and it also became a silent moment for almost half of the batch who had also just taken the exam. Hadn't I been going to assistant lecturer sessions I'm pretty sure I wouldn't be able to write anything on the answer sheet. :-[ shame...
• The course covers materials such as: CPU Scheduling, Process Synchronization, Deadlocks, Memory Swapping, Memory Paging, Memory Segmentation, Virtual Memory, File Management, I/O Disk Management, et c. It is a prerequisite for (IKS31504).
• It is a 4 credits course packed with two written quiz, two homeworks and one programming assignment. There were two exams each done during the midterms and finals week.

Looking back to it now, the 4th semester actually has the most classes which I favor the most, hadn't I been to busy doing this and that, I think I could've performed better both in acquiring knowledge and getting good grades. Well I don't regret it though, it had been a pretty fun yet quite hectic semester back then. I guess focusing on a couple things will be a much better strategy instead of agreeing to do so many things at once. I guess I could note that in my self-advising book (as if such book exists).

~*Koku-kirin_chan*~

Okay, okay... I know it's been four months since I last updated, I know. This may not be a good or that 'wow' sort of update but anyhow I just still feel the need to write these things down to avoid emotional restraint.

Once again, I thank God for giving me such an incredible batch.. I think I must have been one of the luckiest person on earth to just have them around supporting each other in times of need. A friend in my batch even once said, "Who needs a date when you have such an adorable batch?" which I highly agree, what she said was almost.. godlike. There you go JAGUNG 2009 for not letting me down :-)

There is another thing, though, which I think might be a surprise even to myself that makes me absolutely sure that we are a decent batch. A senior once said, "Being an absolutely united batch is a good thing in itself, but making another batch even better than ours brings that unity to a complete whole new level", and that just suddenly hit me...

Our work on the new student's orientation and inauguration program was a success (hopefully I hope everyone else thinks the same way as I do :-p), and yeah, I think what the senior said about taking 'it' to the next level wasn't a bullshit after all. To prove it, we can go from the pictures here...


to here...

Okay so since I got nothing better left to do, I think I should just continue what I write earlier this evening. Here it goes:

3rd Semester Course (September 2010 - December 2010)

Business Administrations (IKS12600)

• Business Administration is all about learning on how to start and run a business, and all of other crucial components related in maintaining business operations. This was my very first experience learning and creating business, it was exciting but I found it also quite confusing at the same time. I was used to be following the rules on doing things, but business administrations are all about concerning social issues that are so dynamic and keeps changing from time to time, so it made me kinda less easy to follow the course especially facing examinations.
• The course is all about starting and running a business just like I've stated above, and it also covers things like selecting the right form of business ownership, enterpreneurship, creating and pricing products, and lastly financial analysis.
• It is a 3 credits course packed along with two written quizzes and a final group project. Exams were during midterms and finals week. It is a prerequisite for (IKS22602)
• Final project: A well-planned business plan. Our group decided to establish a business in the bakery industry.

Introduction to Computer Architecture (IKS21501)

• This class was my first introduction to digital systems, I was lost. The first quarter of the semester seemed fine, we were learning about number systems; converting decimals to octals, tracing false information using parity codes, et c. The real deal comes when we're starting to get into, what is called, Logic Gates. The rest of them are even more confusing, it wasn't that easy to keep track on things since we're quickly moving from learning C to learning D in a couple of minutes. The best advice I could say is to keep notes in class and review them from time to time.
• The course covers topics about introductions to digital systems and computer systems organization; Logic Gates, Datapaths, Instruction Sets, Microinstructions, Combinatorial and Sequential Logic, Pipelining, et c. There is also a small portion of system programming using basic ASSEMBLY language. It is a prerequisite for (IKI20505)
• It is a 4 credits course packed with four written quizzes and one programming assignment. There were two examinations each done during midterms and finals week.

Web Design and Programming (IKI20201)

• My first ever experience in web programming, and it's really well worth it. Web programming is a little bit different from other types of programming, this time, you can really see what you're doing. I mean, instead of blindly code them on an IDE and wait until they're finished and ready to be tested, you could just simply preview the page you're making on a web browser and see where it goes wrong. I found the course pretty much challenging, especially when it comes to PHP and Javascript.
• The course is all about designing a web page and then of course... code it. It covers subjects such as: Hypertext Markup Language, Cascading Style Sheets, Javascripts, XML, Flash, and PHP.
• It is a 3 credits course packed with four web programming assignments and one final project. There were programming exams done in midterms and finals week.

Statistics and Applied Probability (IKI20102)

• The name says it all, it's about statistics and applied probabilty. As much as I thought it was going to be a pretty average level course, it wasn't. Applied probability literally killed me, I have never.. ever stumble across such an abstract mathematical subject as abstract as it was to the extent of unbelievably demotivating. I couldn't even put on the proper words to describe it, if it weren't for statistics on the second half of the semester, I probably wouldn't pass this course. Any advice I could give would be to drill yourself with problem sets as freakin' much as you can, you never know what type of question would pop up on your question sheets.
• The course covers materials such as: Random Variables, Discrete Distributions, Poisson, Continuous Distributions, Markov Chains, Statistical Inference, Parameter Estimation, Hypothesis Testing, Linear Regression et c.
• Statistics and Applied Probability is a 4 credits courses packed with five homeworks and one final group assignment. Examinations were done during midterms and finals week.
• Final assignment: Statistical analysis on the relation of the number of activities to how much credits that students take.

Data Structure and Algortihms (IKI10400)

• So my third semester was a complete nightmare, and this course is like the entrée dish in the devil's realm (okay I'm being hyperbolic and over-emphasizing). The subjects are not  that difficult, it was the programming assignments that were being nightmares. Whenever I was in class I feel pretty confident with what I know and stuffs, but when it comes to code them, that's my silent moment. I believe having senior-buddies that excel in programming and are adept to codes, in this case, is the right move. Back then they were like godsent miracles that just happens to be there to help me. I don't know why, the exams were fine, it's just the assignments... I actually don't know what I have to say about it anymore. :-|
• The course covers the basics of time and space complexity analysis, and data manipulation technique such as: Algorithm Analysis, Abstract Data Types, Linear Data Models, Hierarchical Data Models, Graph Representations et c.
• It is a 4 credits course packed with one written quiz, one online quiz, one programming quiz, five worksheets and three programming assignments. There were two exams each done during the midterms and finals week.
• First assignment: Hospital Queues. Second assignment: Mathematical Equation Validator. Third assignment: Graph's Shortest Path.

Well I guess I stop there for now, it's already very late and I'm sleepy. (:-\

~*Koku-kirin_chan*~

This is so far what I can share about things I have had studied in university. Some friends have been asking what kind of materials I am learning since they say the informatics is kinda bit different, so here goes:

1st Semester Courses (August 2009 - December 2009)

Foundations of Programming (IKI10820)

• This class served my very first experience in computer programming. This class definitely wasn't my favorite, the whole new thing about programming syntaxes and computing algorithms did a good job in making me hazy. I'm sure being open minded was the true key to excel on the subject since every single element in the course is absolutely different compared to what I have learnt in High School.
• The course covers every basic of programming syntax and algorithm; input-outputs, recursion, array, pointer variables, enumeration, et c. The programming language used in this course was C.
• The course is 4 credits with packages consists of thirteen programming tutorials, three assignments and one final project. There were three examinations during the course already including finals. It is also a prerequisite for (IKI10830)
• First assignment: Decimal to Binary Converter. Second assignment: Greatest Common Divisor and Program Validation. Third assignment: File I/O.
• Final Project: EAN-13 Barcode Generator.

Discrete Mathematics I (IKI10600)

• Discrete mathematics is mostly about learning mathematical logics we need to understand in order to validate/create any algorithm used in a program. The course, I must say, is one of the most enjoyable course I have been in over the last two years. If only I had dedicated myself more seriously to it I could've managed to get at least a B.
• This course covers the basics of mathematical logic; Proportional Logic, Predicate Logic, Sets and Functions, Integers, Division and lastly Number Theory.
• This is a 3 credits course with three examinations including the finals and three homeworks. It is a prerequisite for (IKI10610)

English (UUI11010)

• The english course class offers the basic english for academic purposes. This class was deifinitely the money, I have loved english classes ever since I had one back when I was 7 yrs old in my third grade. Hadn't the lecturer been so strict I think I could've had a better result than what I got. *In My Not So Humble Opinion* :-p
• The course is all about reviewing what we have learnt in High School and taking it to a level appropriate for University academic levels.
• English is a 3 credits course packaged with weekly assignments and a presentation as a final component of the grading. There were only two examinations which were done during the midterms and the finals. It is a University graduate prerequisite.

MPK Terintegrasi (UUI11001)

• Integrated Personality Development Course (Translated manually to English, all hell breaks loose), This class is all about how we digest information and issues around us and making a proper response to it based on solid facts and theories. It is also a University graduate prerequisite. Again, this wasn't my favorite class, at all. It got boring for me to actually bother about issues especially when they're about politics to the extent of discussing whether country A has crossed the autonomy border of country B. Just... blah.
• MPKT is a 6 credits course packaged with Group Learning Abilities such as: Collaborative Learning, Information Literacy, Computer Mediated Learning and Learning Skills. The exams I had done was in the form of case studies which would have to be answered and elaborated in an essay.

Principles of Information Systems (IKI10400)

• This course is my first introduction to what information systems really are. The course had almost always made me drowsy and sometimes found myself sleeping without my consent. It was overall a pretty decent introduction course.
• The course covers most of the basics of information systems: Information Systems Concepts, Data and Information Processing, System Analysis and Design, et c.
• It's the only course, so far, to only had given one assignment despite being allocated for 3 credits. Examinations were held during the midterms and finals.

2nd Semester Courses (February 2010 - May 2010)

Object Oriented Programming (IKI10830)

• My second programming class. It was still confusing, especially with the changing syntax and programming rules we experienced thorugh the altering of programming language. The class is somehow hard, most of the time there weren't any exact answer on quizzes and examinations since the trap answer is tricky to the extent of being unimaginable. The subjects weren't actually that hard until you finally face an exam and the assignments, so I guess practice makes perfect for this case.
• The course covers every basic in object oriented programming; Encapsulation, Inheritance, Polymorphism, Generics and Collection, et c. The programming language used is JAVA.
• It is a 4 credits course consists with six programming tutorials, two individual assignments, two in pairs assignments and one final group project. There were three examinations already including the finals and one other lab exam.
• First assignment: "Toko Buah Manis Rasanya" Database. Second assignment: "Adobi" Photo Studio. Third assignment: "Toko Buah Manis Rasanya" Database with Suggestion Box. Fourth assignment: Database Serialization.
• Final group project: RPG Game

Elementary Physics I (IKI10030)

• This is the only natural science course I will have in University. It was pretty amusing. Although I have never liked physics ever since High School, this course had become the most relatable field of studies I had stumbled into, so I didn't get much trouble in finding a pattern to study.
• The course covers the most physics subjects that has nothing related to electricity; Vectors, Physical Quantity, Newton's Law, Impuls-Momentum, Statics-Elasticity, Fluid Mechanics and Thermodynamics.
• It is a 3 credits course and is the only course without assignments. The examinations were held during the midterms and finals.

Elementary Mathematics (IKI10040)

• Despite being called elementary, this course is actually a mash-up of two courses; Calculus I and Linear Algebra. I found the class pretty much challenging especially during the periods when we're studying calculus. Mathematical tricks are not my thing, that's why I'm pretty relieved that the whole subject isn't all about calculus. Linear algebra was much less stressful, having been tutored and explained by a friend beforehand had actually made me quite prepared.
• The course covers all the materials for calculus I and half of the materials for Linear Algebra.
• It is a 3 credits course packed with two homeworks. Examinations were held during the midterms and finals.

Discrete Mathematics II (IKI10610)

• This is the sequel to the previous course alike. Morning classes haven't been quite a good friend for me, since I literally doze off halfway through sessions, so it was sometimes hard to actually just stay focused to what the lecturer was telling me. Anyhow, I still found the class to be fun, it's one of the courses I believe served me justice in terms of what I understand and what I got as a final grade.
• The course gave us a little bit more theoritical foundation for computing science; Advanced Counting, Relations and Graph Theory.
• The course is a 3 credits course packed with three homeworks and two quizzes. Three exams were executed already including finals.

Religion (UUI12020)

• Another University graduate prerequisite. As the name of the course says, it is all about assessing problems and issues around us from the religious eyes. A so-so class, much of the time we were asked to do presentation in front of the class about the issues we had studied.
• It is a 2 credits course which examinations were held during midterms and finals.

Comic Class (UUI12030)

• This is the best class I have ever attended in my entire life!!! How could it not? I love comic books, and to just have the experience in making them are just... supreme. From time to time the class is about theories about how to implement stories inside pictures and making it believable. The best part is actually the assignments where we have to construct a human body on our sketch-books. And there were no exams, yaaaaay! :3
• It is a 1 credit course packed with weekly assignments and a final project.
• Final project: Our very own Comic Strip.

Principles of Management (IKI10409)

• Having graduated from High School in nature science concentration made me sort of lacking the knowledge of social sciences, so this was literally my first time learning about the basics of management science. The class was satisfactory, I had much more fun during the course compared to last semester with IKI10400.
• The course covers the basics to the world of management; Decision making, Organization Structure and Design, Employee Motivation, Leadership, et c.
• Principles of Management is a 3 credits course packed with three homeworks and one company visit report. Examinations includes midterms and finals.

Well you know, I guess that's all I can tell today. It's actually pretty tiring to write all of that stuff. See if I can come back tomorrow and give another explanation on my 3rd and 4th semester.

~*Koku-kirin_chan*~

Hello again, it's been quite awhile since I wrote something. I really surprise myself that when I do go out and make the best of my day, I seldom find myself thinking about stuffs. I guess I should make that top priority from now before I start pouring some gloomy words here and there again.

So yes, my holiday was pretty much fun, I've spent much of the time home, reading... and tweeting. Yes, I guess tweeting has become some sort of my hobby now, the thing is that I seldom tweet, so my major activities is actually watching my timeline and laugh my arse off everytime people tweeted something funny. They were hilarious, I never know people could be as funny as the do in twitter. As about reading, I have been going to Gramedia now and then to find some good books to read, which I did. The book is a saga called Fablehaven, I surely recommend this to anyone who loves fantasy and fiction stories, they're just as enjoyable as it is to read Harry Potter :-) The main question may be how much the books cost, then I would answer that books have been in my biggest expense list since I was little, you guess ;-)

And then it comes to the fasting month, I should say it's a little less memorable than it was last year. There were so many student activites on campus it was actually hard to find the niche and just enjoy fasting, I didn't regret having been involved, though, it's just that I could have more time to enjoy the month if activities were particularly less hectic. Then comes Eid Mubarak, I loved it, I really do... it's just that the whole family wasn't there so I didn't quite feel the spirit. So my big sister spent the big day in Jogjakarta, celebrating Eid Mubarak with her soon-to-be family in law :"> Yes, that is really sweet and she's very... very lucky, I really envy her in a good way. Anyways it felt kinda bit sad for me not to have her around, since I suck in every social situations and she usually is the socialite and she always do the ice breaking and I would just have to follow where the conversation go from time to time. And it's kinda bit embarrasing for me having to admit that I do miss her :-p

Well there's not many things I can say about this semester's holiday, but I'm quite content, having being able to isolate myself from meeting people and just enjoying my own company is a satisfactory on its own. Well I am content, until I look at the calendar and realise that holidays are only two weeks left. How about that huh? :'(

So yeah everything's been going great, I just *fingers crossed* hope it stays as much the same when holiday's over and we're have to go back to campus for a brand new semester. Okay that's that for now, ciao

~*Koku-kirin_chan*~

Okay so posts have been all crappy. But somehow I really don't care, I'll write about whatever, really, even if I might ended up regretting that I posted something that may not be document worthy. The thing is I really need to blow things out of my mind, let me be alone around for awhile and you would actually be amazed of how far my mind can wander in such a short period, and you know what happens to people who keeps stuffs on their own? They ended up in a Psychiatric Hospital.

Well, judging from the intro I guess you will all be thinking that this can be yet another gloomy story, which it will. Don't fancy it? It's fine, pack up your mouse and click on the cross button on your current tab, that will do things good for you. I don't mean to be all angsty about everything, it just happen that I maybe over-analyzing things from time to time that bad thoughts just often come to mind. Oh whatever really.

So over this last six months, I haven't really been good at socializing with people... no, I sucked, and it's getting to the point where I think that it's whether I pulled myself from society or it's them who are walking away from me, I don't know. To make it easier for any of you who read this, it's simply that I don't feel like I'm trustworthy at all. So what's up? I don't mean to be all narcissistic but I think some people did consider me to be trustworthy, I mean, they told me stories about themselves; their love lives, relationships with their family members, the hardships of college, etc. But now, not the slightest can I ever think of that again; they've stopped telling me about things, they've been secretive about crushes, not bother to tell what's happening when they're in a bad mood, not even cared to come to me for help when they lose things. Well I don't mean to be nosy. It's not like that I have to know whom they have a crush on, but the casual little things like telling that they think they might be in love or something or that they believe something is wrong with their friends, it hasn't been happening and I don't know why.

I don't know, maybe I am over-analyzing stuffs, I mean, they don't literally pulling themselves away from me, it's just that personal connection that I used to feel that's kinda fading away (okay, the emphasis is a little bit hyperbolic -___-) We're still hanging out together, have lunch, etc. But even when doing so, I feel like I'm way waaaaaaaaaay too far from them, it's like they have been catching up with their lives for a hundred years that sometimes they get so drowned in their own conversation that I get to feel so lost over and over again. So, what would be next? I don't know, I just hope that everything will gradually be fine over time, the thing that touches me the most is that a certain party which I have been avoiding have been asking why on earth I've been skipping meetings with them and said they would like to see me every now and then, and I think that party should call me a jerk for being so. Gosh, have I been an untrustworthy jerk all this time? I don't know, I wish someone would tell me, but they have stopped telling things, so what should I expect?

Then, what's next after being untrustworthy? Hmm, let me think about it... becoming the leader of the mentor team? You judge how ironic it gets. Alright I guess I better go away before I start muttering things that shouldn't be said.

~*Koku-kirin_chan*~